Just one year ago I started receiving paying coaching clients.
It wasn’t a steady stream, but every single one of those clients became my beacon of light, they showed me what was possible when I believed in my soul’s purpose.
I’m laughing as I write this email as ‘fur coat no knickers’ is a popular British saying that basically means, superficially positive on the outside but common on the inside.
It was the most stressed I’d ever been and I felt like absolute CRAP!
I was eating less than my 4 year old…
As I write to you I’m waiting to board my plane for a trip to the States. Just 6 months ago I did not see this coming in my business.
Are you one of those entrepreneurs that’s in the grind stage where EVERYTHING seems really hard, you’re exhausted continually and you worry far too much about the perfection of what you’re doing?
I can relate. That was me up until last year. I thought that work had to be hard, that it was a woman’s prerogative to be constantly tired and that being the ‘Queen of Perfection’ was uber cool. Boy was I wrong!
In my twenties, I had it all, the man, the car, the job, my health and lots of fun at the weekends.
Then one day a bombshell was dropped in our office. I’d no longer a secure full-time job. I was made redundant. In a matter of minutes, panic swept over me and all sense of security, abundance and worth vanished.
It’s so cliche, I’ve heard it all my whole life yet I find myself saying it on REPEAT lately.
There’s never a perfect time to settle down, to buy a house, to have a baby, to get a puppy, to take a holiday…
It creeps up on you.
You suddenly feel SICK TO THE STOMACH. You can’t do it. The sweat is lashing off you. What were you thinking? This means the World to you. Think about who you’re letting down. OMG who is going to see you? What will they say? You can’t do it. It’s just impossible.
I’ve just spent the entire weekend immersed in a business academy in London with one of the top coaches in the World, a man who worked under Tony Robbins, for 15 years.
I remember the stress, the anxiety, the ‘what if’ I don’t make it feelings. The feelings of failure creeping in, not letting go and people pleasing. I should have been excited with my adrenaline pumping, running that race completely and wholeheartedly.